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Taking the Plunge February 16, 2010

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Gala has posted 100 ways  to start loving yourself right now for self radical love month.  Since I had an entirely crappy day today I have decided to start doing some of them tonight and tomorrow.

Wanna know about my crappy day? I tried on my old work pants (even though I brought new ones) they didnt fit (obviously) so I ate an entire bag of chips. I havent had an entire bag of chips since… Orobably this time last year I’d say so while it is a set back its not a massive set back. Once I was done I felt gross because of all the fat and salt in them but whats done is done and I will  not do it again.

One of the ways to start  loving yourself right now is to have a total media blackout. Thats no tv, no phone, no computer. OMG! CANNOT EVEN NCONSIDER. So since my awesome phone is currently not working as the awesome XT network is down AGAIN I figure why not do it tomorrow?

I am going to have to use the television and dvd player when I work out tomorrow but in exchange for this I will not use my ipod instead. NO IPOD.

By removing all the media and computer I will have more time for myself heres what I intend to do tomorrow.

– work out

– re-write some of my old writings

– write out two apology letters by hand (so I dont say things I dont mean). The importance of these apology letters is for myself only I’m going to apologise and then get over it. I have a slight tendancy to hold a grudge or two.

– just write whatever pops into my head.

-Finish the book I’m currently reading (blood promise)

– Look for my missing dvd

Thats all I can think of right now but hopefully there will be more  things to do.

Dont miss me too much tomorrow 🙂

Love n hugs

me

Self Radical Love Diary Entry: 13 Feb 2010 February 16, 2010

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I debated with myself over posting this but since I wrote this in my  journal I have felt so much better so what the hell I’ll let you read it.

I watch my favourite movie, Your name appears

I watch ny favourite television show, your name appears

Watching an advertisement on television, your name appears.

Before I started my self -love journey I hadnt thought you you in years and now you’re all I think about, comsuming my every thought.

I used to think I was incapable of loving someone

and then I met you

Now  I think I’m incapable of loving anyone but you

I know  you dont love me now.

What scares me the most is that maybe, you  didnt love me at all

Even so I will still be incapable of not loving you.

Am I better off thinking you never did? Or thinking you did and now

you

dont

?

Radical Self – Love: Week one. February 12, 2010

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While in the beginning I intended to write daily posts  of my journal entires I have decided not to because what I have been writing is very personal and kind of involves people in my present life even if they are not activiely in my life their presence is known. Anyway  should  I decide to disclose this website one day I would not like for them to see this – not that they would actually come here I dont think but I’d rather not take the chance.

Heres What I can tell you.  I have began to take more pride in myself, in my appearance and especially how I am towards other people.

I have gone from exercising once a day for up to three times a day because I am finding I want to do it because I deserve to be fit and healthy.

I am trying my best to be postive  but at the moment I am also trying to  write in missing peices from my movel which is mainly the sad depressing stuff. Being a writer I  really get into my characters heads which means for the past week its been all depressing teenage angst but I am nearly finished with  it so thats somethig positive!

Through all of the ups and downs of this first week I am very glad that I have started this and cant wait to see whats in store for the following weeks.

Love n hugs

Me.

The Playgirl’s Guide To Radical Self-Love February 8, 2010

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GalaDarling is hosting the  The Playgirl’s Guide To Radical Self-Love for the month of February. In true fashion I am late as always but this hasnt stoped my eagerness.

Last year Gala did a simular exercise called iCiNG Transformation Challenge which I found really helpful and totally inspiring. I managed to lose alot of weight during the exercise. I like to think had certain events of last year not happened I would have kept it up.

However, I cant do anything about that so this year I am going to do the self love challenge and hopefully I’ll get a chance to make it stick.

Basically this month is going to be about learning to love everything about yourself and seeing beauty in the world you live in .  These days there is so much pressure to be thin, pretty and perfect twenty four hours a day seven days a week. It can get iresome and its not good for our self image. these days we’re too busy to notice the small things  that surriound us. Its time to stop, step back and take notice of everything.

Each persons journey will be different but we can all join together and disscuss stuff and help each other out.

The first peice of homework was to find a journal of some sort, write a quote or draw a picture of love that will inspire us to start our journey.

Heres my journal and Totem but I dont have a pic of my quote  by camera battery went flat right as I was taking it.

I will try to post daily write ups of what I’m doing as well as normal posts about other stuff incase this isnt everyone scup of tea.

Love n hugs

me